not mine... ever

i feel like i'm standing in quicksand while i see a huge tsunami coming towards me but i'm helpless to do anything because i'm rooted to the ground and no one is willing to risk their lives to save me and they'd rather save their own skin and is this the punishment i get for falling too deep it's unfair that i don't get to ever see you talk to you or be with you and this is separating us keeping us apart and we're drifting further from each other i can only grasp your fingers while i get sucked under and struggle to breathe and stay afloat while the waves pull you from my reach and all you can do is go with the flow of the water i'm drowning in my own tears into the dark abyss of the deepest oceans i don't even know if you'll wait for me once they rescue you while i disappear forever without trace what did i do to deserve this melancholy?