in seventeen years

an update before i get to doing my history assignment which i unsuccessfully managed to get an extension on. fug you.


just feeling painful today. i don't really know why. maybe because things didn't go my way today. apologies to daniel (tan) again for being such a grumpy frump today. let's just say i had intuition that today was going to be shite for me. and my intuition served me right. i have to read a cerpen and write a summary about it. oh hell. i hate doing these kind of things. and i sort of almost blew up at mahmood today. if i did maybe he'd see how swamped and stressed out i am at the moment and give me the damn extension. fug. was really a down day for me. was near tears after pccg/lunch and evening maths lecture. today is such a dip from yesterday. the roller coaster. oh how i hate thee


baizura injured my specs. they're fine now after a visit to the optometrist. getting new specs. plastic half-framed ones. black colour. let's say volleyball is not my forte, unless you put me in front. but i'm starting to like ms lee, even if she mixes mine and baizura's name to come up with zubaidah, or she calls other versions that she can try to think up of my name. that's it. i suck being a defender, except floorball. and the ankle is flaring up again. i'm at a loss. sigh. if the pain persists it's off to dr ong.


i don't know whether i'm regaining the confidence i once had. the return of the super genius tutor may make or break who i can be. please let me succeed like you did the last time and prove that it's not luck. if i had tuition today i'd probably just have a break down in front of my tutor.but i did get my melt down today. shan't talk about it here. argh.


fug mahmood. if tomorrow everyone hands in assignment i-don't-know-what-number and he lectures me about everyone being able to manage their time blahblahblah i'll probably just roll my eyes and probably tell him off for not knowing how it feels like to have so much shit going on because your project work gpp isn't even done yet and that i've got a throbbing headache these days and the darned feeling of the flu is looming precariously. why couldn't it come sooner?


long post. please make me happy dscy. because i've got nothing else to live for.