what if...

i don't want to know the what if's? it complicates things. it makes friendships difficult. i do not want to be in that in-between stage. we either are or we aren't. we can't say we don't know our places in each other's life. so if you tell me how you feel and not confuse me, we wouldn't be in this state. and do not accuse me of giving mixed signals. i'm confused and tearing up.


i want to stand on a rooftop, or a hilltop and scream my lungs out with you. and maybe all our worries will go away. or we can run somewhere far away from here. and i'll be safe as long as i'm in your arms. and you will be there holding my hand, guiding me all the way.


you are like a palimpsest of my memories. maybe we aren't meant to be? i will love you, no matter what.


to no one in particular.