not the way i want it to be

how do you fill up an empty space in your heart? how do you react to feelings in previously unchartered territory? where do you want this to lead to? how do you rise above everything when all that you're feeling is rockbottom? do you understand what it's like to want to hold on to something, that if someone came to take it away, you'd fight to make sure it's not taken?


i'm at an all-time low. expect showers and thunderstorms from me this coming week. i hate the feeling that comes after you get high. reality seems virtual. fight till they take your life. kamikaze.