update

school is hectic everyone is rushing to do pi.... i'm tryin to find a corner to cry at the moment... feeling very tense these days. keep waking up late and trying to not lose my sanity. overwhelmed by what is expected of this tiny self.


whatever, i want to say that i've never had an incy wince feeling for you but i can't. and i won't ever forget you. but i'm a forgettable person and that you may not really care. but why doesn't our friendship suck? god knows.


the past week i've been wakin up at 6+... not good. i woke up at 6.25am on friday. all for pi and catching up on homework. training on wednesday. pe on tuesday thursday. went floorball stick hunting with delia. red stick. lime green ball. nyehnyehnyeh. seriously doubtful about my position and whether i made it to the division a team. gut says no, hope says yes. those who have faith in me agree with my hope. but my gut feelings are usually better than i take them to be. hell may care. new cg rep. (reader: cue guffaw)

you are purely chickenshit to me

happyhappymotivated

lollies... camp rocks... rasalas is leading at the moment? tiao me... at home there's only the maid and me... lollx...



this entire week was about keeping fit... self-training on monday... got whacked in the hip by a floorball stick blade.. damnit... had 2 games i think... yupyup... then tuesday did belay school for pe... i'm a rockified belayer... because i've belayed a 60-70kg guy when i was in sec 1... skinny me.. and now i have two motivations... lovesit... plus he looked at me.. had training with coach... ran back and forth the grandstand 20 times... endurance.. proceeded to foyer for training and game... my mummy came to fetch me and waited for me... haha... lollies... packed for camp...



camp was tiring and really pushed me beyond all my mortal limits.. day 1 was tame... low elements and also water activities... loves 0633a!!!! we are such enthu people, especially dexter who came up with most of the cheers... and lennie!!!! he's sucha a comic... *fun with him around* i love water confidence... super fun...



day 2.. omg... high elements and the tower... did abseiling.. cries buckets... so scared and so overwhelmed by my accomplishment... didn't even pay attention to who my student instructor was... all i remembered was that he thinks my eyes are cute... haha!! high elements was freaky.. did 2 of the stations... my right leg is bruised due to the broken bridge.. belayed marcus on the centipede thingy.. i am strong!!! can brake with one hand.. and i don't trust my life in marcus' hands looking at how he belayed others... i trust it in lennie's though... campfire was cute... we combined with 11g... the ice kachang song... funny.... as a tribute to our house mistress ms chua and house master mr hamim after their inspirational talk that morning...



day 3 was big sweep and clearing up for camp 2... did toilet duty... i don't want to talk about it.. on the way back to school played the hi johnnie game and also the dart game thingy which lennie taught us... marcus keeps losing the johnnie game... nyahaha!!! ate bk with delia and went home... ate jp carrot cake and hibernated... hibernation's good...



misses you very muchies... and i'm still awaiting an apology

damn

damn... today was a funny day.. hey big spender!!! lollx... so lemme see...



my dear old friend is giving me the silent treatment after i didn't answer his call.. sorry dear but you called while i was having pccg... call me... please.. damn it.. baizura and delia finally turned up for a floorball activity, which is our morning run and now we're running 9 rounds.. ms lin thinks it's cute to take our picture and paste it on the floorball board...i don't know why but my timing has sucked worse than last week.. point- train on running now zafirah.. but the last time i ran 2.4km i clocked 14+minutes... still okay.. afternoon pe didnt run had ankle injury due to morning run.. had to do crunches and push-ups... sore arms and abs... sobs... fiza osman supposedly came to my school... to sister- tak nampak batang hidung pun.. kena buih is it?? handed in pi.. surprised that my motivation didnt even do his... saw him rush-typing, panicking..



today was fun... spent the morning at bk with delia and baizura... breakfast and cop discussion.. *we are so enthu* proceeded to imm with delia darling to get some stuff for camp! ziploc bags and matching shoe bags!! fila... yippee!! can't wait for camp... ran in the rain might be getting the flu soon...



i thought we'd be closer but we're drifting further apart.

chickenshit

let's see, school is shitty and getting repetitive and i managed to open my locker on my first try. haha. and i ran with my motivation. for one round and he ran faster. the flu is getting to me. camp is next week! lollies. yay!!



i'm supposed to be doing my PI at the moment. but i guess i'll do it after doing my blog. it's still not fully set up. i love the beatles especially this photo. i might just stick to it. and support keong hazwan for anugerah skrin. because it's simply hazwan. yeah.



i have cute classmates. for example leonard.at first i thought he'd be someone serious. who knew he'd be such a comical character. he's reaction to when i told him that monday mdm zalinah didn't come was beyond words. so funny. sucha cutie.



i'd better get a move on. i love ________ very muchies for reasons i shall not state. smilesz

by "popular" demand, i've decided to revive my blog, under a new name of course and i'm in school supposedly doing some blog competition thing for mt... nonsense.. i deleted the old one for some personal defaults and i don't want my past to haunt me terribly..

so anyway, met with a dear old friend, in both senses of the word old like after 3 months. nicey guy.. going to miss him when he leaves the country at the end of the year. don't forget me, loll... nice conversations and funny anecdotes? yea yea.. if he read this entry he's going to freak... lollies.. thanks for treating me like a kid.. make me happy and smiley.. my morning fix... you and a nice dose of ice lemon tea.. smilesz...

i'll update some other time..